I’m really great at being terrible at taking care of myself.
Let’s just get that out there: I have a hard time keeping my chin up through the hard times. I struggle with mental health and body image. I wrestle with defining sexuality and gender identity.
Most of us do.
Very few people are willing to talk about it, myself included. But the worst part about struggling is how alone you feel. You feel like you’re one man, scaling a mountain.
Therapy helps some people. It doesn’t help others. Same with medication.
It’s not foolproof, for a multitude of reasons –personal, financial, social, medical– there is no foolproof way of feeling okay when you don’t.
So this series is meant to share my struggle, and to force myself to be open about what’s going on in my head. Because I haven’t been, not to my family or my friends, not in my (short-lived) therapy sessions, especially not to myself.
I’m climbing a mountain, and so are you. This is not meant to say my mountain is higher than yours, or your mountain is icier than mine –it’s meant to say I’m climbing a mountain and you’re climbing a mountain. They’re different mountains. We have different climbing styles.
But, dammit, we can get through this.
I’ll be sharing my journey to feeling okay. If you want to share your story, please do. Leave a comment. Send me a message. Shout into the ether. Whatever makes you feel better.
We’re going to get through this.
This is part 1 of Rainbows & Unicorns, so named because life isn’t full of rainbows and unicorns, and I enjoy a bit of sadistic humor.
Thanks for listening. More to come.